Friday, September 29, 2006

It's Just A Song I Sing, Cause Song Singin' Makes Me Happy...I Wish That Were True...I Wish Everyone Were Happy...

"Time," by Ben Folds

Think of me
Anyway you want
I can be
The problem if that's easier
In your head
Move the pieces around
Things I've said
Turn the memory upside down

And it makes it better I know
But sometimes it's hard to swallow

In time I will fade away
In time I won't hear what you say
In time, but time takes time you know

Tell your friends
The things they wanna hear and see
Start the drums
Band against the enemy

And in time I will fade away
In time I won't care what you say
In time, but time takes time you know

In your head
Move the pieces round
Things I've said
Turn the memory upside down

It might make it better, I know
But sometimes it's hard to swallow

In time I will fade away
In time I won't care what you say
In time, but time takes time you know
Time takes time you know




I think that would make a good "Senior Song," although I think I would be one of like 3 people to be up for it.


Dalton asked me to join Black Candy today. I said yes. I'm not sure if he was being serious or not, but I'm pretty excitied about it regardless. It might be kinda weird for awhile though because I'm not sure if he's moving up here or what's going on with that. My skills are nowhere near the calibur of Dalton's either...Oh well, should still be fun.

My stuff from Valiant Death still hasn't gotten here. Maybe tomorrow? :/

I'm kinda worried about what the turnout for this upcoming show is gonna be. I've been trying my best to promote, but I have no classes with people interested. Like, literally none. It's horrible. I hope people come. I really and truly do. It should be a great show. I think I just need help. I know there's people out there that would be interested, I just can't reach them. Blah. I just want everyone to be happy.

Michael Pericone tried to kill himself last night. He has cut marks all over his wrists. That's not cool. Even though he's immature and just flat out dumb a lot of the time, he's a nice guy...He doesn't need to do that kind of stuff to himself. No one does.

I'm tired of writing. Goodbye.

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

All the Neighbors Send Their Food, Wishes, and Their Sympathies...

...These will surely fill the place where he used to be. Mother's crying in the kitchen. She will wash those tears with wine. And I think it'll be awhile 'til the youngest is fine. The children stay inside their rooms. What a way to spend the Spring. Summer might not be so great....ever again.

Give your pity to the widow...She must bear this weight alone. Keep her mind off of the past, she can find a replacement. Now we take him to the meadow...Far from the city's eye. We will wait there for the wind and let those ashes fly. Fly. Fly. Fly. Let those ashes fly.

--Jon Crocker



Wow. You never know how sad funerals are until you experience one at an age where you are aware of what's going on. When you're little, you think they're so boring, and you just wanna get out of there, but now it's quite the contrary. I did fine today until they shut the casket. That's when it hit me. "Wow. I'm never going to see her face again for the rest of my life." That's when your spine, and arms, and face, and everywhere kinda tingle, and your stomach just drops. You know the feeling. That wasn't what got me, though. What got me was seeing my grandma cry. Today was the first day I've ever seen that happen. I didn't actually cry but I came so close I was very surprised that I didn't. I'm really disappointed in myself though. Ever since I started playing guitar (about 2 1/2 - 3 years ago), my great-grandmother, Big Mom as we always called her, would ask, "When are you gonna come play me a song? I'd love to hear you play. I bet you're the best player around." In those 3 years, after all the times she asked, I never took the time to take my guitar up there and play for her. And there's nothing I can do about it now. Just to make peace with myself though, I might go out to her grave and play a song sometime during the week, when no one's around. That may sound weird, but it might help me some personally.

My mom wanted me to take a picture of "Big Mom" today since she couldn't make it. Well, I did, and I took some other random pictures since this is the first time my camera has worked in quite awhile. All of the pictures uploaded on first try except for the one that I took at the funeral. It took me at least 4 tries for it to finally show up. Each time, it would say that the picture was already there...When it wasn't. Kinda weird, eh?

This whole experience today made me greatly appreciate the art of funerals. Instead of just forgetting about someone, you get to talk about all the great memories you had with them, as well as hear everyone else's memories. It shouldn't be a time for tears...It should be a time for happiness, and good memories, and the feeling of knowing that they're in a better place. I want my funeral to be similar to a "New Orleans Jazz Funeral," I believe that's what they're called. I want it to be a celebration of my life, not a bunch of people crying. There'll be music, food, and good company...Basically a big party. I doubt very many people besides family will show up to my funeral whenever it may be, but at least they'll (hopefully) have a good time.

This whole experience also made me appreciate everyone and everything a ton more. I've been spending a lot more time with my grandparents ever since Big Mom passed away, and today after I got back from the funeral, I went for a 15 minute walk just to soak in nature and enjoy it while I can.

I'm sorry for such a morbid post. This is more for me than anything. So I'm sorry if you read this. It probably did absolutely nothing for you. Sorry.

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

Be Brave To the Grave...

The show was fun, but like always I did the worst out of everyone. I hate microphones. Apparently, my voice overpowers like...everything when I play. And I can't "sing quieter." The one song that I was worried about screwing up on was the one I did the best on, and the one I figured I'd had down pat was the one that I screwed up on the most. I played keyboard for Rollie tonight too, it was fun.

My stickers got here today! They look alright. The text could be a luittle bigger, but that was my fault. Now I just wish my stuff from Valiant Death and Kylewilliam would get here...I'm gonna predict that my VD stuff will get here tomorrow and Kyle's stuff on Wednesday. Hopefully I'm right.

Something is wrong with my guitar's input jack. I really needta get it fixed. Soon.

I FINALLY got that last date that I needed to book for Jon Crocker booked. I am very happy because of this. It took me a friggin' MONTH. Hopefully it'll be a really good show for him. I really hope a bunch of people show up for his show(s?) here...

Rollie and I have started a new promotion technique. Say we have 2 shows that are a few days or so away from each other...If you come to both shows, you get free stuff. Hopefully that'll be more incentive for people to come out. As if free hugs weren't enough. Jerks.

M'kay, I guess that's it for now. Later.

Monday, September 25, 2006

At Night I Lay Awake Just To Watch You Sleepin'...And When the Morning Comes, I'm the One Who's Dreamin'...

Well...The show is tomorrow. Hopefully I won't screw up too bad, although I'm sure I will. I'm only playing 4 songs. And ugh. I just broke a string. I just put this string on a few hours ago. That makes me want to punch someone in the face with a hammer. Now I hafta stop and get strings before the show. Joy.

My dad bought Sammy Ensley's CD yesterday. It's actually really, really good. He writes some really clever lyrics (one song is comprised solely of bumpersticker sayings). "If life was a pencil, it'd have no eraser." It's produced really well too...I might get him to recorded the AAoMO stuff if I don't have my own personal studio thingy set up by then. It'd be close and he'd probably cut us a good deal...

I need to find someone to record In the Shadow of Victory's set on Saturday...Hopefully Ed can do it. I'm interested in hearing their "new sound." Gabe says it's really awesome. Hopefully he'll be right. I think it's pretty lame how they did the whole reforming thing, though. They didn't even tell the old members that they were kicked out. I knew before they did. :/

Hopefully my stuff from Valiant Death will get here tomorrow. I'm ready to hear some new Madeline!

"I Am Only Your Side Effect" is now on Bonfire Club Records. I'm looking forward to releasing his CD cause I know it'll be good.

I recorded a song for a Plan-It-X Tribute compilation that's coming out late next month. It's a cover of "In Your Bed," by I Like Japanese Hardcore. It's not very good, but I made it my own (it sounds NOTHING like the original). The recording quality is the main problem I have with it. It may or may not be on the CD version, but I know it's gonna be on the online version.

I had a $40 check the pocket of the shorts I wore yesterday and they just got washed. Argh.

Alright, I think that's about it. Come to the show! It'll be boring, because it's an acoustic show, but you should come anyway.

Sunday, September 24, 2006

Live Life With A Reckless Abandon...

Visiting with my mom wasn't as bad as I expected. Mainly because I avoided her most of the time. She was busy fighting with my grandma most of the time anyway.

My great-grandmother died a few hours ago. I'm sad, but it happens. It's part of life. It's the end of her story. I just wish I had taken the time to get to know her better.

I just got back from seeing Irons In the Fire (Kalisa's mom's band) and The Nitty Gritty Dirt band. I got in free. If you ever get a chance to see The Nitty Gritty Dirt Band, take it. They're incredible musicians. All 4 of them. It's insane.

I had full intentions of going up and supporting the bluegrass musicians today, but I didn't have time. I know I should've made time, but I didn't and I feel bad about it now. :/

I have nothing to talk about. Goodbye.

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

The Lights Go Out...Call It Sleep, Or Call It Murder...

Today was a really awkward day. I dunno why. Just something about it seemed odd.

Apparently "In the Shadow of Victory" are pretty much totally reforming, but the members that are getting kicked out don't know it yet. That kinda makes me feel like crap because I posted flyers on their pages and they seemed really excited to play on the 30th. :/ According to Gabe, the new stuff sounds awesome, but I dunno...They were fantastic before... :/ Well, whatever, I guess...I just hope a decent crowd shows up and a couple people donate (so I can pay The Mourning After...They said they were fine without getting money since they're only like an hour or so away, but I wanna help 'em out as best I can) and buy merch (which most folks have no problem doing...especially if it's a shirt or something).

As soon as Suite 11 finds a drummer, we lose a guitarist for a couple months. Seriously the day we got a new drummer, Tyler has to leave for police academy for 2 months. Oh well.

Madeline's album ships today. I can't wait for it to arrive. I've also got a CD, 2 7"s, and a zine on the way with it.

Short post, but I'm done for now. I feel like I have a lot on my mind. I'm just not sure what it all is yet. :/

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Quiet, But Loud...Dancing, but Still...

...We watch the world for something to happen. But only once in thousands of years can we see Mars as clear as the moon. Love is not new, it's ancient and old, How do I know Autumn's when lovers go running ALL up in arms...All up in arms while the wind blows."
--The Accident That Led Me To the World



Alright. Awesome. The show on the 30th now has an official spot. Young Harris College Student Center // 7:30PM. I'm so happy I finally got it sorted out. I was starting to feel horrible because I would've let In the Shadow of Victory down (this is quite possibly the last show they'll EVER play). Hopefully people will show up and have a blast. The Mourning After is coming too. They're grrrreat. I'm still trying to get up with Typhoid Mary, but I get this feeling they're gonna wind up not coming. I don't care though. I'm just happy I have a spot.

Next task: Find a spot in North GA (besides Blairsville) for Jon Crocker to play on Sunday, November 5th. I've been working on this for 3 weeks. I found a spot for a house show where he could probably make 20, 30 bucks, but I dunno if he wants to play it or not. If I knew anyone in Blue Ridge, I'd just try to do something there. Maybe Tree Frog music? I think that dude would like Jon's stuff...Who knows...I'm never over in that area to ask him. :/

Madeline's LP ships out on Wednesday. This makes me happy. I was like the 6th person to pre-order it, so mine is coming in a hand-sewn jacket. I've heard msot of it and it's grrrrreat. The CD version won't be out in stores / available for online order until January, but you can get it from her at shows starting in late October. I wish she would come play up here. I'd even pay all gas expensese out of pocket. :(

The Accident That Led Me To the World is an incredible band. Think Iron and Wine but more mellow. They're so amazing. How they're not signed, I don't know. So good.

I don't see why parking passes are so expensive. They were only 5 when my brother was in highschool. Inflation isn't that bad.

Jon Crocker is writing a brand new, exclusive song for my comp. I'm excited. I was just gonna use "Summer Days," but I am definately down with a new song. :D

School actually wasn't too bad today. I laughed at a lot of stuff.

Ok, well, yea...I guess that's it.

Monday, September 18, 2006

I Won't Come Home Tonight...I'll Ride Until I Find You...On the Other Side of Town, Looking For Me...

Sometimes it's weird how close these things are to right:




You Are An INFP


The Idealist



You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.

Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.

It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.

But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.



You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.



Normally I don't post those things, but I thought that was was actually halfway acurate. I dunno. I'm bored.

I think I may have discovered a new place for shows when the weather and temperature is good: The Copperhead Lodge. The only problem is, it's kind of a ways out there. I might try to have the show on the 30th there though. It seems pretty cool. Emma's aunt and uncle own it. They don't charge anything to book it. I'll probably give them like 50 - 75% of the door charge everytime I use them, if I do wind up being able to use the place. Gotta support! Hopefully if the first couple shows do alright they'll let me use it whenever. That'd be pretty nifty, if I do say so myself. And I do. The only thing is, they don't have lights or a PA. So basically, the shows have to end before dark and I have to get a PA for all of them. Yet another reason I need to invest in a PA...

Taking Lottie Home wanna play their CD release show up here. Saturday, November 11th. foreverDOWN and one other band might play. Should be fun. I just need to find a friggin' spot for it to happen. Another reason I need to invest in starting a venue...

I had a cool idea for the November 4th Jon Crocker show the other day...Have 2 shows, an early, preview type show, then the real thing like 3 hours later. Whoever comes to both shows gets free stuff from me and Rollie. Basically, if all works out as planned, it will be something like this: 2:30 @ YHC // GMST, This Is Lestat, Jon Crocker, I Am Only Your Side Effect, The K-Macks Endeavor (playing 3 songs each). We give everyone there flyers for the later show, pin a couple up in various spots... Then, at 5:30 @ Black & Gold, the actual show starts. Jon Crocker, Josh Fletcher, Wildebeest, I Am Only Your Side Effect, and (maybe) The Molly Project. ~30 mintue sets each. I think it's a cool idea, and will draw more people in the long run. Hopefully it'll work out. Hayesville always has a lot better crowds anyway.

I need to get GuitarPort back from Johnny soon. Now that I have everything I need to record, I can use it again.

I wanna visit somewhere that looks exactly like the place in the movie "Sleepy Hollow." I'm pretty sure that nowhere like that exists anymore, but it'd sure be cool.

Alright, yea. I think that's it. Time for another drab week of school.

Sunday, September 17, 2006

Hope It's Better Where You're Headed Than Wherever You Are...

My great-grandma is on her deathbed. It's really sad. What made me feel the worst was almost seeing my grandma cry. Which I have never seen before.

I finally restrung my guitar.

Kyle wants me to release something better than "Little Glories," so he decided to release that one by himself.

I just wrote and recorded a new song:

Whatever happened to that girl I used to know?
She had a heart made of gold.
Whatever happened to the places we would go
After all the lights went out
I miss the long drives to and from your house...
What happened to our love?

You left home in search of new
Well...I guess you found him...
How do you think this feels?
I don't really think you care...
All those promises we made...
All going down the drain...

But somehow after all this mess
I still can say "I miss you."

Friday, September 15, 2006

So Let's Keep Living, Let's Keep Hoping, And Let's Keep Breathing So That We Can Exist...Cause When You Don't Hope, You'll Die Alone...

...And we won't die alone."
--imadethismistake


Ugh. Josh is wanting to pay like 1,000bucks to record the Suite 11 junk (only like 5 songs :/), then a bunch more for pressing and all that. For one, there is no way we'll ever sell enough CD's to make that back. Why not? For one, our music isn't catchy or really even that great sounding...We don't mesh. All we're doing is making noise. Two: I'm the only person in the band that books shows for us. No one else does anything. They just say, "get us a shows and find us a drummer" (which I've done already). Without us having shows all over the place, our "fanbase" is never gonna grow, thus, having the same people at all of our shows, and pretty soon, everyone will get bored with us. I'm already bored with us. It's so ridiculous. We could record something that would sound just as good on a $500 8-track, and we could record more songs, whenever we felt like it. That's the way to go, but nope...No one ever takes my recording ideas seriously. Oh well. I guess that's what sucks about being the youngest by 2 years. I am gonna suggest this though: I'll pay for pressing costs (aka - release it on my label) if they pay for recording. I'll actually be getting a better deal out of that. So yay.

Jon Crocker and I might be playing in a haunted house in Suches in November. It's gonna be sweet. They say the place is seriously haunted, and that the owner's are offer $100 to anyone that spends the night in it. I told 'em I'd do it for free.

I'm still waiting for replies from Madeline and Hot New Mexicans about the show on the 14th. If they can't make it, I'm gonna try to get o'brother and maybe Ashlyn since everyone's been telling me to get them up here.

I really wish Chris would get back to me with some form of response about the In the Shadow of Victory show. Even if it's a no, I might have time to find another spot. Maybe Black and Gold? Who knows.

Trying to book these shows for Jon Crocker has really made me appreciate all the trouble that touring bands go through when trying to book shows. It's insane. People should donate to musicians just because of all the trouble it is to set a show up.

Thursday, September 14, 2006

I Have Labored All the Long, Under One Misguided Notion...That One Day You'll Come Back To Me...

New song = done. This makes 9 now. Unfortunately, none of them are any good. This one doesn't have a title yet...



Here is where I draw the line
When your eyes just can't meet with mine.
Please tell me...I'm dying to know
What went on that night?
What's wrong my dear?
You're looking rather faint tonight...

You know exactly what's going on.
So why are you keeping this under wraps?
Just say it, shout it, scream it
We're through.

Goodbye.

They said you were a heartbreaker.
Now I know they were right.




I need to get new strings before the show.

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

I'll Take Anything You've Got, Cause That's So Much More Than I Have Now...

Well crap. The Max Levine Ensemble aren't gonna be able to make it down on the 14th. It turns out, that day is a Jewish holiday, and their drummer, being Jewish, is staying with his family that day. Kinda crappy, but they said they would try to come down really soon, so it's cool. What this means is, I'll have room for another band or two on that show. I'm thinking Madeline if I can get her. And if Hot New Mexicans can't play I'm gonna try to get o'brother.

It appears that I'm finally getting back into the swing of school. No, I don't mean getting used to it. My grades are finally getting back to where they usually are. I did horrible the first few weeks (In Spanish, I made an 80 on the first test. That's lower than ANY grade I made in there all of last year. I made a 99 on the one today, though...In Algebra II I've just been making stupid mistakes. Lots of them. I still somehow have an 'A' though). I'm by no means, however, delighted to be going to school.

My mom is coming down next week. That sucks. At least I don't hafta go up there, though.

There is a very small, but still visible, possibility that Paul Baribeau will be coming here in early October. I kinda doubt he will, but we'll see.

I should have "Little Glories" sent out for pressing sometime this week. I'm excited. I needta sell like 35 copies to make my money back though. Hopefully I can...They're only like 3 bucks each...And that's negotiable. :/ If I do sell enough in a reasonable amount of time, I'm gonna be buying a bunch of CD's from various labels and taking a stab at starting up a distro and hopefully getting some people into good new music. Labels I'm talking to already: Plan-It-X, Valiant Death, Friends and Relatives, Riot-Folk!, and Safe!!! Forever!!!.

I'm ready to record GMST's album. I got my recording equipment so I could do that, first priority, and they keep putting it off for no apparent reason. I mean, I'm doing them a huge favor. I'm not only recording and mixing this album, I'm playing piano and singing on it, AND putting it out at no cost to them. All I'm ask is for them to give me like $1.50 - $2 for every CD they sell (which they'll probably sell for like 10 bucks each...That means that they'll be making at least an 80% profit). I honestly don't think I'll make my money back on that release. I just wanna put it out because they're my friends and that's what friends with record labels should do.

Skye Butler is really weird. She asked me to send her one of my songs, so I did. She asked me to send another, so I did. Blahblah. I ended up sending her 3 full songs and 3 clips and I told her that the rest were even more horrible than the ones I had sent already and I wasn't gonna send them. So she kept telling me to send them, and I kept refusing, and then she said if I didn't send them, she would "say hey to [me] and then hug [me]." That kinda makes me wonder...Do I give off a vibe of, "Hey, don't talk to me." I mean, chances are, I probably don't wanna talk to you, but still...That's a pretty crappy vibe to be giving off, y'know? She didn't hug me, by the way. *Insert sigh-of-relief here*

I don't see how all these totally independent bands can do full US tours. It's really frustrating! I'm setting up 5 shows for Jon Crocker. I have 3, almost 4, done, but I've been working at getting the ones that I lack for like...2 weeks. It's so ridiculous. I did get him a slot playing on the radio though, which I think is pretty cool myself. I won't get to hear it, though...Stupid school. Maybe it'll be recorded? Who knows. I wanna release a live album by him.

Riot-Folk! puts out some great music. I just noticed that. And they give it all away for free / optional donation. I admire them for that. And because of that, I'm not gonna be a moocher! I'm actually ordering their CD's and paying their suggested donation. I think that's what I'm gonna do with my (personal) music, ie: This Is Lestat...Have it available at a sliding scale cost of $0 - 5. If someone tries to give me more than 5, I'll give them something extra.

Madeline is recording a brand new album in November. She already has one done that hasn't even been released yet (it's out on vinyl on 9/20!)...Oh well, I'm excited regardless. I've heard some songs from it and they're grrrrrreat. :) She also has another 7" coming out soon.

I had full intentions of going to bed before one in the morning tonight. Oh well. :/

Sunday, September 10, 2006

Face Down...This is Where It Leads You...Too Far...

I wrote a song in math the other day, and I finally got around to getting the guitar stuff done on it. It's kinda interesting because it has a screaming breakdown at the end (I told you I wasn't lying about the "Grindcore" part of my genre on MySpace)...I like it. It doesn't have a title yet, and I'm thinking of saying screw it to naming all my songs after movie quotes. It was kinda cool at first, but I'm getting bored with it.


I never see you on this side of town [anymore]
And I don't think I will for awhile...
I miss your face and I hope your new friends
Treat you half as good as I did...
But I have one more question,
Please, I'm dying to know...
Why couldn't we have had just
one...last...


Dance like it's goin' out of style
If this isn't living please tell me what is
But if this is, let's just live forever
"You and me" is all we'd need


Your brilliant monologues were just a hoax...
You never meant a word you said in those notes...


Dance like it's goin' out of style
If this isn't living please tell me what is
But if this is, let's just live forever
"You and me" is all we'd need


Just dance...






That's it. I actually really like how this one sounds. No so much the lyrics, but the music and progression and stuff. Probably my favorite song of mine to date. I'm looking forward to playing it live.

That's all...I just figured I'd post it on here. I'm hoping to have a rough recording of it very soon.

Sometimes I Don't Wanna Make New Friends...Sometimes I Just Miss Those Old Friends...

...I'm seeing someone new now.
She calms my heart down.
But I'm too scared to tell her
How crazy I can get sometimes.

--Paul Baribeau


So apparently I have a solo show coming up. Rollie decided to set it up for me without asking and has already begun to promote it. Great. Oh well. I guess I'm gonna hafta start playing them eventually. Might as well start now. It's September 21st. I think that's a Thursday. 7PM.

"Little Glories," by imadethismistake is gonna be sent out for pressing nextweek. I hope it turns out well. And I hope I can at least halfway make my money back on this. I myself am gonna have 50 copies of it. It's either 2 or 3 bucks. Whichever you can afford.

There's an insane amount of shows coming up. I like the fact that more music is coming into Blairsville. I don't like the fact that attendance has been off like mad as of late. I don't have any good classes to promote in this year. I think they're kinda losing their lustre to some people too. :/

I have no idea what I'm doing with my life. I'm planning on going to college to major in music, but what after that? I seriously doubt I'll go much of anywhere with my solo stuff, AAoMO and Suite 11 are going absolutely nowhere, I don't forsee my label going very far. I wanna open a coffeeshop / venue, but I don't know if I want that big of a commitment. I don't think I could handle it. You know...Sometimes I feel like Norman Cooper. And I don't mean that in an old, disgusting pedophile way either. I mean it like...I seem to be doing everything by myself and it always seems to come out mediocre at best. It sucks, but that's the way it is, and it feels like that's how it's always gonna be. Such is life, I guess.

I miss Sophomore year. This year has sucked. I can't recall even one day being even halfway enjoyable thus far. I mean, I'm doing fine in my classes and all, it's just the atmosphere of all of them. I hate it. I know I keep saying this...It's a re-occuring thought.

My grandma had to be taken to the hospital via ambulance yesterday morning. She has bad astmah and is a heavy smoker. Appartley, she woke up and couldn't breath. Now she has to be on oxygen for about 2 weeks. She's at home though and uses it at her own leisure.

My dad's birthday is tomorrow. Tomorrow also marks the one year anniversary of Sloppy Saturday, the first show I ever set up. It seems like so long ago...It's crazy. Looking back, I've changed a lot since then. I'm not the dumb kid I used to be. I may act the same, but I have a better grip of things going on in my life now. Actually, not really. I've been stressed out since this school year started. Argh.

Sometimes I wish I was 5 again. Not a care in the world and amazed by things that most people take for granted. The "simple" things. Like butterflies, blueberries, mudpuddles, and whatnot. Things that people generally ignore now, because they've got too much responsibility. Stop to take in the scenery every once in awhile. It'll be nice. I promise.

Sometimes I wish I was 21. Only not really. I never really think about me being older, really. The only times I wish I were older are when there's 21+ shows that I wanna go to or something. Or worrying about driving curfew.

Sometimes I wish I was good with words so I could better convery my thoughts than just typing up this crap. I'm sorry if you actually read all of this, as it has been an utter waste of your time. I'm sorry.




You're here for a reason...
Livin' and breathin'
And if you keep trying
Someday you'll find out why

And I love you,
I miss you,
Probably haven't seen you
In a long, long time

Don't let it be the last time
You come into my life
No, don't let it be the last time
You come into my life

Baby, all this rock-n-rollin'
Adds up to nothin'
But right now it's the only thing
That keeps me goin'

This road leads home
If I turn the car around
But for now I'm gonna
Keep on movin'

I will not let it be the last time
You come into my life
I will not let it be the last time
You come into my life

And I could write you a letter
Not sure where to send it
Hope it's better where you're headed
Than where ever you are

And everywhere I go
Everyone I know comes with me
Wonder how many more I can fit
Inside this crowded, crazy heart...

Just don't let it be the last time
You come into my life
Don't let it be the last time
You come into my heart

--Paul Baribeau

Thursday, September 07, 2006

Dance Like It's Going Out of Style...

Today was kinda meh, kinda ok...



My SM-58 finally got here! This means I'll be able to start making studio quality recordings very soon! Hooray.

I still don't have a job.

I still don't have a date for the In the Shadow of Victory show.

I'm working on a new song. It's been the hardest one to figure out so far. I dunno if that's good or bad. I only have the chorus totally done how I want it, and I kinda like how it sounds...but that's the only thing. I still need to write the rest of the parts, including guitar for the bridge, lyrics for the bridge and second verse, as well as piano, bass (maybe), mandolin, and percussion for the whole song. Hopefully I can get those figured out soon. :/

I've decided that I am going to try something that I don't think has ever been done before. I'm going to record a hardcore song using only folk instruments. Mandolin, guitar, banjo (if I can find one somewhere), homemade drums, and other things like that. If I can pull it off, I think it'll sound really cool. I doubt I'll be able to though.

My first release has just been changed. I should have the "imadethismistake" sampler out by the end of this month...Then the comp in late October. I really hope this works out for the best...I'm excited! It's got 2 songs from the upcoming vinyl, 2 live tracks, and one brand new studio track.

Alright, well, I'm out I guess.


PS -- This was supposta be published last night at 1:41AM. My internet has been really screwy as of late.

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

When Walking Alone In the Dark, One Must Remember Proper Ettiquette...Like Speaking Only To Yourself and Chasing Other People's Shadows...

Something ridiculous happened to me today. I got in trouble for dresscode. Why? When I sat down you could see maybe half an inch of my boxers. Pretty ridiculous, especially considering when I got back to class, I saw 5 people's cracks hanging out within about 10 seconds. Oh well. Although barely, I was still breaking the rules. I guess that's what I get. When I went to get a shirt from the office, Coach Kelley took up my phone too. I don't see why though. It was completely and totally in my pocket, not visible. Whatever.

Yea, today was lame. My mixer got here, though, so that was alright, I guess.

I'm already falling into a state of lethargy and beginning to go through the motions everyday. I have no real friends in any of my classes. Just people who claim to be my friends, but don't really know me. I don't like it. At all.

Michelle's article about the shows is complete and it sounds pretty good. At least I think so. It's gonna get published in the "real" newspaper soon too. Hopefully that'll draw some more people out to the shows, as attendence has been lacking as of late...

There's a new guy at Young Harris College and he has a sweet band. He's gonna start playing some of the acoustic shows... http://www.myspace.com/kmacksendeavor

Madeline is playing in Athens on Sunday, October 22nd. I wanna go, but I don't have a ride. Hopefully I can find one or get her to play up here before then...

I'm gonna be making really big investments soon. Hopefully they all work out well. :/ In case you're wondering, these investments include: co-releasing a CD with Valiant Death Records, starting up a small distro, releasing / promoting (by means of stickers, buttons, and posters) / distributing 2 CD's (one of which I am producing, recording, mixing, and doing guest vocals / piano on), attempting to get a few "bigger" bands here, piecing together a PA system, paying for "professional" recording for both Suite 11 and AAoMO, and blahblah. On top of all that, I have to pay for my car insurance, gas, and various other transportation costs. So yea, if you want to buy any Plan-It-X, Safe!!! Forever!!!, or Valiant Death releases in the next few months, see me and I'll probably have some. I'll have GMST stickers, posters, and maybe buttons sometime within the next couple months. Hopefully I'll have their album out before the end of the year. And hopefully they won't want some really elaborate packaging, although I'm pretty sure Trey will (the others won't care).

Ok, yea...I really need to stop whining and learn to shut up. Hope you're having a better day than me, whoever's reading this. Goodbye.

Monday, September 04, 2006

Where Were You On the Day Steve Irwin Died?

The show was sooo much fun. Everyone did great (besides me :/). Boogdish was seriously awesome, and that is very strange. I honestly think that everyone there had fun. After the show, Johnny, Kyle, and I went back to John's house to sleep. That's when I found out that Steve Irwin died. Soooo, we decided to record a 9-track album about it. It's great. http://www.myspace.com/whengoodthingsdie

Saturday, September 02, 2006

So I Take Into Recording What I See...I Write It Down Where It Might Last...

New song.


Well it's a long, long road
And there's nowhere else to go
So I guess I'll follow this trail
And hope to find you before I
Reach the other end

This tired route
Has got me bored
My strings keep breaking
When I hit the chords

Now there's an old, worn path
Years of joy, memories, and rest
Scattered all along the way
I wish I could stop and take it in
But I must be on my way



It's more of a folky song, if you can't already tell by the lyrical style. It's about life. The first stanza is the beginning, the middle is falling into a state of lethargy, where nothing seems to be going right. And finally, the last is about (you guessed it) death and taking all the good times you experienced for granted. I guess the moral is live life while you still can. And live it to the fullest. Make friends and try to right all of your wrongs before you die.