Monday, January 29, 2007

You Make Me Feel Real Again...And I'll Do The Best That I Can...

What a fun weekend. On Friday night I went over to Trey's house and stayed the whole weekend. Bethany and Johnny were over there too. Fun, fun, fun.

While with the afore mentioned people, we went and saw the movie Children of Men. Interesting movie. If you have some spare time and a couple bucks, check it out.

I'm excited for the show Friday. Promotion has been going awesome and I think this may draw the biggest crowd yet. I can't wait.

"The Ef'd" is reuniting tomorrow afternoon. I'm not so psyched about that. Basically, it's Ed's bad lyrics mixed with something I made up on the fly. It's kind of a hassle. The Ef'd hasn't been the same ever since it started being "serious."

I'm not looking forward to this upcoming week of school at all. I'm ready to be out so bad. Everyone (even teachers) seem to think I'm a senior. I wish I really was. But so it goes.

Goodnight.

Thursday, January 25, 2007

So This Is Progress...

Wow, ever since that last post things have gone uphill like mad. I've actually become genuinely interested in all of my classes.


Chemistry has been going awesome. I seem to be the only person actually understanding the content and that makes me feel cool. The first test is tomorrow and I hope my notebook is how he wants it. I still need to write my essay.

US History -- I was one out of 3 people to make a 100 on the last test. I've begun working ahead just out of the sheer desire to gain more knowledge on the subject matter. Yea, I'm weird. Whatever.

Band -- All the music is coming easily, even with having to transpose one of the songs. I've also become some of a fingering instructor to someone since I "know most of the low brass fingerings well."

Honors Lit. -- Ever since we turned in our "perfect paragraphs," the class hasn't been bad at all. We had a simple journal entry and now we're watching a movie. Yay. Hopefully we're finally done with The Scarlet Letter, as we've already had 3 writing assignments over it. As a side note, that is a horrible book. Never read it. Even if it's assigned to you.

Anyway, enough of my babbling. Here's a haiku I wrote that is gonna be somewhere in my latest tune (spoken, not sung).

Your eyes, just as wormwood,
(Filled with grief and despair)
Pierce my bones again.



And now I do believe I shall go write my Chemistry essay. Goodnight.

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Everybody Knows It Hurts To Grow Up, And Everybody Does...

I'm sick of school. I used to not mind it, but now it's just a chore. It wouldn't be so bad, but Honors Lit. is awful. It's not so much that it's hard, it's that it's such a bore. We've written 2 essays on the same exact thing. Well, actually, I've written one. I need to write the other one tonight. Maybe it's just the book? I dunno. All I know is that the class has been terrible so far and it's bringing down my whole semester, even though I have one of the higher grades in there right now.

I signed up for my next year's classes today. I'm gonna have a hard senior year. AP Literature, Physics, Economics, Algebra III, (maybe) Spanish III, and Band.

The venue / record shop idea has been scrapped. Ed's parents leased out the building to someone, but if that doesn't work out they're getting the movie theater. Oh well. So it goes, I suppose.

I don't know why I'm writing this, so here's a song by Ben Folds called, "Still Fighting It."



Good morning, son.
I am a bird
Wearing a brown polyester shirt
You want a coke?
Maybe some fries?
The roast beef combo's only $9.95
It's okay, you don't have to pay
I've got all the change

Everybody knows
It hurts to grow up
And everybody does
It's so weird to be back here
Let me tell you what
The years go on and
We're still fighting it, we're still fighting it
And you're so much like me
I'm sorry

Good morning, son
In twenty years from now
Maybe we'll both sit down and have a few beers
And I can tell you 'bout today
And how I picked you up and everything changed
It was pain
Sunny days and rain
I knew you'd feel the same things

Everybody knows
It sucks to grow up
And everybody does
It's so weird to be back here.
Let me tell you what
The years go on and
We're still fighting it, we're still fighting it
You'll try and try and one day you'll fly
Away from me

Good morning, son
I am a bird

It was pain
Sunny days and rain
I knew you'd feel the same things

Everybody knows
It hurts to grow up
And everybody does
It's so weird to be back here.
Let me tell you what
The years go on and
We're still fighting it, we're still fighting it
Oh, we're still fighting it, we're still fighting it

And you're so much like me
I'm sorry

Sunday, January 21, 2007

I Just Have Too Many Dreams To Ever Amount To Anything...

Not much has happened at all since my last post. The only reason I'm posting right now is for lack of anything better to do.



We ended up having a snow day on Thursday. Yay. We had a quick band practice and got one song pretty much down. It's pretty crappy, but oh well. After practice, I went over to Johnny's house 'til around 10:30, It was kinda boring, but I got to see Bethany again, and that was nice.



Friday: I feel extremely out of place all day, save US History. Not entirely sure why, but I don't like it one bit. Chemistry was actually a bit difficult and we have a good 2 hours worth of homework. Honors Lit was awful. We turned in our close-reading paragraphs and then got another essay, plus other assorted work, due Tuesday and Monday respectively. I hate it. The class is filled with friends, but it's just awful. We're having to find all of this symbolism in crap that doesn't really have symbolism in it. It's just a bunch of words. It makes me not wanna take AP at all. And it's only the beginning of the semester. :/

When I get home, I just sit around all night doing nothing. I'm just really mellowed out. I end up going to sleep at 9:30, listening to Alasdair Roberts, 2673, and Giardini di Miro.

Possible good news though: I was talking to Ed and he said that his parents were interested in me helping them open a record store / acoustic venue. I really hope it works out.




Today: I've been putting off my homework all day. I probably have about 4 hours worth. Extremely uneventful day, though.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

So Here I Go, Chasing You Again...I've Wasted All This Time, But I'm Chasing You Again...

I've been pretty bummed out since the new year began, and I'm not entirely sure why. I don't mean I've been totally bummed every single day, just overall. I really don't know why though...Things seem to have been going quite smoothly.

I got my report card with my lowest grade being a 94. Could've been better, but it will suffice, I suppose. Can't go back and fix it now anyway.

The college is booked for the February 2nd show. I'm pretty excited for that. It should be a great show. Now, getting people to show up will be the trick. Dawson (one of our biggest competitors in basketball) is playing against us here that night. Not many of the basketball game kids, as I call them, come to the shows, but there's still a few, plus attendance has been really whack lately. Thank goodness for Hayesville kids.

Everyone is talking about colleges, where they wanna go and whatnot, and I feel so behind. I have no idea where I want to go, or when I figure it out, if I'll have the credentials to get in.

I'm tired of seeing all of my friends make changes for the worst. Maybe it's really just me who's changing? Who knows. Whatever it is, I don't particularly like it. But again, I can't do anything about it.

Have a song:
You've been gone for far too long,
and I don't know you anymore

Now you say that you're here to stay,
Well, baby, I can't take much more.


I need sleep.

Friday, January 12, 2007

I Drove Passed Your House...It Was Like Driving Passed a Graveyard...So I Held My Breath For Awhile...But I Didn't Last Long

...I'm waiting for you to see the light that shines through, but your eyes are black...They are ancient runes...
--imadethismistake



Man, today felt so weird. I dunno what it was about it. I've had a headache all day. Chemistry was enjoyable, as was Mr. Garrett's class. Band sucked, which is kinda weird, and Batchelor was really boring. The bell rings, and while waiting in parking lot to leave, this car with 3 girls I've never seen in my entire life just stops the line and waves me to the front. Well, I go, and they wind up passing me at the top of the hill (near the gate) in the turning lane. Then they all turn around and wave. Kinda creepy. I have no earthly idea how they know me. I just playfully balled my fists up like a prizefighter, made a funny face at them, then let some car go in front of me so they weren't directly in front of me. Problem solved.

I get home and my grandmother is sick with something. I went up to her house to see her, and to get my banjo that finally came in and I think I caught whatever it was. I most certainly do not feel too grand right now. I also found out that my great grandmother (who recently passed away) played banjo. No one else in my family knew that. Hopefully I didn't invoke any bad memories. :/

Anyway, this has been copy / pasted from where I posted it earlier on MySpace. I don't really feel like retyping it.

First off, before reading, this bulletin was not intended to offend nor change anyone's mind about anything. It is just to get the message of one man, Malachi Ritscher, out for all to see. I myself think it's worth the read, which is precisely why I typed it up. Please excuse any grammatical / spelling errors you may stumble upon, as I am a horrid writer.

Malachi Ritscher was a man who lived alone in the big city of Chicago. He had several hobbies including photography, playing a couple instruments, reading, painting, but most notably, a videographer. In his time alone, Mr. Ritscher would find himself going and recording free jazz shows for bands that could not afford "professional" videography done, then virtually giving them the recordings. He would do this 5 nights a week. If there was 5 feet of snow on the ground, he'd still be at the show.

Nearly everyone Ritscher came in contact with him liked him and saw his as an extremely friendly and intelligent person. Ritscher, however, never got too close to people, choosing to follow a slightly reclusive life, but that's how he liked it.

On November 3rd, 2006, Ritscher, sign and video camera in hand, went to the "Flame of the Millennium" statue in downtown Chicago and performed the extremely uncommon act of self-immolation. In case you don't know what that is, that is suicide by fire. It is highly uncommon because it is the slowest, most painful, and messiest way to die.

Why did such an intelligent man do such a thing? The best known instance of self-immolation can be found in a photograph of a Vietnamese monk named Thích Quảng Đức, in flames in the middle of a busy street, protesting the treatment of Buddhists under a Catholic regime. Why choose self-immolation, undoubtedly the most agonizing death? That is precisely why. It shows the great lengths one will go through to stand up for what they believe in.

What did Malachi believe in? He wanted to stop this pointless war we're in. If you notice, I mentioned that Malachi had a sign with him as he went towards "The Flame of the Millennium." That sign read "Thou Shalt Not Kill."

The disgusting part? People on the roads and streets saw all of this happening. What did they do? Absolutely nothing. A slight ripple in the flow of traffic was the only alteration.

You're probably thinking, "Wow. Why did I not hear of this? This is insane." Well, that's because mass media outlets did not mention anything about the story. This story has been spread simply through "the grapevine," aka, word of mouth. I am asking you, if you believe in Malachi's message (not necessarily his means of presenting it) of stopping the war. PLEASE, tell someone, pass this on, just don't ignore it. It's a cruel world out there, don't become one of the people that would just pass him by. I can proudly say, "I heard you, Malachi!"

For more information, or ways to support the cause, check out this site dedicated to what I've just talked about. They're really doing great things.
http://www.iheardyoumalachi.org/index.html


Well, that's all. I'm glad that tomorrow is Friday and that we have a 3-day weekend. It's been a long week. For now, I bid you adieu.

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Cheer Up My Brother, It's Going To Be Alright...I Know Your Hearts Are Heavy As Mountains, But We're Going To Go Back Home One Day...

Another new song...I wrote it in about 2 minutes...Not sure what I think about it yet...

Bury me wherever I may fall
Oh, bury me wherever I may fall
Bury me without you by my side
Oh bury me, I won't say goodbye

Bury me somewhere far away
Oh, bury me somewhere far, far away
Don't bother putting flowers on my grave
Please, just please...Tell them all the truth

Speak so soft I can hardly hear your voice
And breathe so deep I can't help but feel your heart
Now sing so loud your voice begins to crack
And dry your eyes, so I can see that smile again.



First day of the new semester: Muy boring. I think my favorite classes are gonna be band and US History. Honors Lit will be pretty fun, but lots of work is involved and Chemistry, from what I've heard, is INSANE. Not looking forward to it all.

We're having a reading check tomorrow in Lit. I didn't even start the book. It was waaaay too flowery. One sentence would take up like 5 lines. Ridiculous. So yea...I'm gonna be reading Sparknotes all night in hopes that I'll pass the check. Joy.

Anyway, I just figured I'd swing by and post that song...I should have a rough recording of it by tomorrow-ish.

Sunday, January 07, 2007

Why Should We Have To Be Afraid To Say The Things We Wanna Say? Do We Need That Poison In Our Blood...

...To make us thrive as humans?
--redbear.

Well, my last post was nearly 2 weeks ago. Not much has happened since then, really.

On the 28th, I went to the show I was talking about in my other posts. Or So It Goes, Life Under a Tree, Mount Awesome, Nice and Friendly, and redbear. played. It was cool getting to see all of the people I already knew again and meet Patrick (who will be playing down here on May 5th).

On the 29th I went to another show which really sucked. It was a punk show and everyone was in their little circle(pit) of friends and I just stood up against a wall the whole time. After the show a couple people talked to me though, which I thought was nice of them. They said they felt bad for me.

30th -- Fly back home. Finally.

31st -- Sit at home and do nothing for New Year's. I got invited to 2 parties, but I couldn't go to them due to Georgia's state driving curfew.

1st -- Again, Nothing.

Rest of the week until now -- Nothing.

I'm getting ready to go put a CD player in my car. I dunno why I'm posting this.

Here's a new song. It's 7 1/2 minutes long.



Sleep now little one
It's not yet your time to shine
Tomorrow will bring many things


Tonight I will see you
From these darkened skylines
And you...Oh you
Hold your head so high

And I've been here far
Too many times before
And I know just how
This will end


Your scarlet letter is shining through
And we all know what that means
...Just what that means.