If It Were Up To Me I'd Be the First Thing That I'd Change...

Well, I'm back from Chicago. This was the best trip so far. Here's an outline of it:

Tuesday -- I got there at like midnight. Just went home and slept.
Wednesday -- Went to an awesome show and spent the night with great friends and had a ton of fun. This was the best thing I've ever done out of all my trips up there.
Thursday - Tuesday -- Went to the library and watched a bunch of movies.

That's about it, really.

Now that I'm back, though, I've got a bunch of shows to worry about. Wonderful. I just want people to show up and have fun. People seem to be bored at all of them now and that makes me wanna stop doing them.

I'm playing my first solo show since like...last year...on August 8th with Patrick Cadaver. Should be fun. I need to figure out what I'm gonna play and where the show's gonna be, though...

I don't want school to start. I still have a bunch of summer work to do.

I was dissatisfied by the end of the Harry Potter series. The ending was completely predictable. Yea, I'm a nerd.

My throat has been hurting for about a month. I think I should go get it checked out sometime soon.

I need to lose weight.

My grandmother was taken to the hospital again Saturday. She now has a nurse coming to her house a few days every week to take care of stuff. It's really bad, but there's nothing anyone can really do about it. :/

And in conclusion, here's a song by my friend Pat (aka redbear.) that I've been really into lately. It's called "Cook County".

I'm not the boy I want to be, and I can't stay at this party. It's getting harder and harder to breathe. So knock my teeth out when I'm drunk and drag me to your neighbors' tub, and please just leave me there face up. Cause I've always wanted to wash out with the rain, and it's sad to see that things all stay the same. If it were up to me I'd be the first thing that I'd change, but it's impossible to be washed down the drain. And when you're with me I feel the same. I love you , but I know I'm never going to change. And when I'm gone, will you all forget my face? When I'm gone, I might just lose my place in this town.

I Heard From Someone You're Still Pretty...

Well, so far this summer has been pretty terrible. I've been working all the time.

The show on June 26th went smoothly, but the one on the 7th was the worst attended show ever and that makes me very sad because it was awesome. Oh well. Can't change it now. All the shows I have lined up right now are really close to each other. I hope people will show up. :/

I'm leaving for Chicago Tuesday. The next day I'm going to see imadethismistake, redbear., Delay, reddelicious, and a few others. It should be fun. I may go to Mauled By Tigers too. I dunno.

I feel really, really fat and it's terrible. I really need to exercise...I'm just so lazy.

I miss my friends. Even the ones that haven't moved away...I never see any of them anymore.

My car messed up the other day. It's still drivable, but the problem is getting worse and worse. Something with the axle and brakes. It's gonna be expensive to fix, which pretty much shoots my plan of buying a drumset any time soon in the face. Argh. Oh well. I guess it's a good thing I didn't buy it already though, because then I'd be broke and couldn't get my car fixed.

So I think Miles has talked Jon into doing the split release I proposed to them. This makes me very happy. I dunno when it'll be out, but I'm pretty positive I'm gonna spring for nice, professionally pressed CDs with full color inserts. Hopefully I can afford it whenever the time rolls around.

"The Blairsville Sessions" will be out whenever I do the artwork. Who knows when that will be. Certainly not me.

I wish I liked my songs well enough to start playing solo on a regular basis. But I don't. Oh well.

I know I say this every time, but I really need to figure out what I wanna do with my life before too long. I don't even have any ideas on where I wanna go to college.

I wish my Paul Baribeau and Matty Pop Chart CDs would get here already. I got the new foreverdown EP and it's nothing spectacular.

Dave said he's actually gonna bring my recording stuff back next week. I really hope so...I wanna get my demo all recorded and ready to go before school starts. It's gonna be more like an album than a demo as far as length goes, though.

A girl from Seattle named Bella moved near me. We listen to similar music, and she seems to be a little bit like Bethany. We've been planning to hang out for like a week, but things keep coming up and we can't. She's leaving for 2 weeks in Florida tomorrow, but I think we're gonna try to grab lunch or something before she leaves. I hope it works out. She seems like a nice girl who just needs some friends. She graduated highschool at 16 (she's 17 now), so she won't be going to school to make any friends and that's kind of a bummer not having any friends. I should know.

Anyway, I think that's about it. Hope anyone who's reading this is having a good summer. If you want anything from Chicago, let me know by Tuesday afternoon!